the sun leaked. the yellow napkin. i was surprised to have forgotten. that it got stuck. that she slapped the metal. that he said it1 so clearly in the sprinklers in her face. i guess when it’s the only thing it stops being a sound. placeholders for movement. people back to back in the edges like grass. we had the same wig. she could barely stand it. when the baby looked at her, she looked down. it was different for me. i was the pizza boy. i rode all the way home with a flat. my inner tube pushed like a body part. the yellow in my room was not sad. once there was something. then there was something else.
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1 “okay, but just from here on in, everything would just be a lot easier if you stayed a girl”
the sun leaked. the yellow napkin. i was surprised to have forgotten. that it got stuck. that she slapped the metal. that he said it1 so clearly in the sprinklers in her face. i guess when it’s the only thing it stops being a sound. placeholders for movement. people back to back in the edges like grass. we had the same wig. she could barely stand it. when the baby looked at her, she looked down. it was different for me. i was the pizza boy. i rode all the way home with a flat. my inner tube pushed like a body part. the yellow in my room was not sad. once there was something. then there was something else.
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1 “okay, but just from here on in, everything would just be a lot easier if you stayed a girl”